Saturday, August 09, 2008
I feel like I'm frequenting this blog like I did just 2 years ago. And stoning at this screen, waiting to type something I wanna type. It's always at such crucial moments that I seem to be more distracted and everything. Really weird. While I read through some of my friend's blog, I'm really wondering...how did a bunch of people with similar nature and characteristics metamorphose into so many different varieties of qualities and nature now? It's like JC life changed a lot of us. Maybe because of the girls, maybe it's the environment...but really, it scares me to see how we change. Cos I duno if its for the better. While I'm sure I made new friends and have changed some of my ways...it just doesn't feel right to have my friends turning into almost-new individuals whom I nearly cannot recognise and feel for. Weird. Yet something to ponder about.
Why is it that when we get into JC, the world starts getting...more unfathomable, darker and closer to the reality we see in Gotham City? Ya i know it's that defiled by criminals and whatsoever-.-, but..I duno, it just seems that we are being exposed to many kinds of evils, opening the Pandora box. Random thoughts, yea i know. I'm also getting more and more repulsive towards adults. They just give me a feeling that they have a hidden agenda everytime they approach me. I feel like I can't trust them totally. Feels like an invisible wall I set up myself against them. It's not good, that I know too. But it's becoming a reflex. A subconscious, unknowing act. Scary.
Moving from that, JC is really a mini society of its own. It is a perfect simulation of what you would get in life. Imperfect working partners, incompatibility with certain people, dislike for certain higher authorities, contempt for many people, scorning and being skeptical of the current system, etc. And this exposure really doesn't feel good. I don't like being compelled to do certain things or communicate with certain people, but it's slipping out of our hands. It's not our choice anymore.
小时候真好。。此句不差。踏入成人的世界，才了解在这社会中，人是多么无助的。存在主义也有它的一番道理吧。撇开这些吧，自己。
Innocence
8/09/2008 11:23:00 PM
