Saturday, August 30, 2008
不可以再虚度光阴。。如今的每一分一秒，都是制衡这场战争的关键。。我要赢！要胜利！不能输。。输给这个考试制度，输给压力。整装待发，每一天都是准备。准备迎接下一天的复习，下一天的压力，下一个月的考试。杀。
Innocence
8/30/2008 06:05:00 PM
Sunday, August 24, 2008
This shall be a last-ditch attempt to buff my english standards in order to fend off the impending and looming threat that is notoriously termed "General Paper". Defeat comes eventually to the unprepared, and I must beef up my content and examples (faked, mostly)! okay its crap. I wanted to blog a post to officially mark the start of a strenuous, torturous, long-drawn 18days of mugging. HOWEVER, that got botched by something else. Incidentally, it fell on 21st August, my birthday. Unfortunately, it was not my birthday celebration that prevented me from blogging. Say Hurray to Appendicitis and Appendicesomy. Instead of a chance to sleep snugly in bed and wake up to the realisation that mugging days have started, I earned myself a rare and indeed enriching and sophisticated experience of having my tummy punctured with 3 hideous holes and having a small and irritating miscellaneous organ extricated from my body.
Nonetheless, the worst of it all was that after the...complicated operation, I felt like a useless person. Really, for once. I've all along detested this feeling of being helped extensively and unnecessarily.weird.And no,this mishap did not pick a great time to occur. 5 days before the prelims isn't really a good time, i reckon? And then, I was forced to pick myself up (literally and metaphorically) and get geared up for mugging. Mugging gears set. oh wait, wikipedia seems to have something interesting.
Innocence
8/24/2008 09:54:00 PM
Saturday, August 09, 2008
I feel like I'm frequenting this blog like I did just 2 years ago. And stoning at this screen, waiting to type something I wanna type. It's always at such crucial moments that I seem to be more distracted and everything. Really weird. While I read through some of my friend's blog, I'm really wondering...how did a bunch of people with similar nature and characteristics metamorphose into so many different varieties of qualities and nature now? It's like JC life changed a lot of us. Maybe because of the girls, maybe it's the environment...but really, it scares me to see how we change. Cos I duno if its for the better. While I'm sure I made new friends and have changed some of my ways...it just doesn't feel right to have my friends turning into almost-new individuals whom I nearly cannot recognise and feel for. Weird. Yet something to ponder about.
Why is it that when we get into JC, the world starts getting...more unfathomable, darker and closer to the reality we see in Gotham City? Ya i know it's that defiled by criminals and whatsoever-.-, but..I duno, it just seems that we are being exposed to many kinds of evils, opening the Pandora box. Random thoughts, yea i know. I'm also getting more and more repulsive towards adults. They just give me a feeling that they have a hidden agenda everytime they approach me. I feel like I can't trust them totally. Feels like an invisible wall I set up myself against them. It's not good, that I know too. But it's becoming a reflex. A subconscious, unknowing act. Scary.
Moving from that, JC is really a mini society of its own. It is a perfect simulation of what you would get in life. Imperfect working partners, incompatibility with certain people, dislike for certain higher authorities, contempt for many people, scorning and being skeptical of the current system, etc. And this exposure really doesn't feel good. I don't like being compelled to do certain things or communicate with certain people, but it's slipping out of our hands. It's not our choice anymore.
小时候真好。。此句不差。踏入成人的世界，才了解在这社会中，人是多么无助的。存在主义也有它的一番道理吧。撇开这些吧，自己。
Innocence
8/09/2008 11:23:00 PM
