Monday, July 28, 2008
不知怎么的，总是在最关键的时刻做最不必要的事情。就在离Prelims不到一个多月的这几天,诸多事件纷至沓来，灵感、感触浮现脑海，犹如清池上的青藻般，不吐不快。
死对许多人来说是非常可怕的。不，正确的来说，不是死可怕，而是因为我们不知道死后会去那里，所以才会害怕。依稀记得，曾祖父死去当时，模样安详。他说，他看到来迎接他的天使。不管是真是假，他不畏惧死亡，不外乎是因他有了寄托。他对死后的情况，有了自己的一番概念与定义。他清楚，他死后将回归上帝怀抱。当然现在我们不可能证明他死后去了哪里。
那么，我是否害怕死亡呢？很简单。我不知道。不知道应不应该害怕死亡。或许我太过单纯，抑或我实在没那空闲时间坐在椅子上冥想。说实在的，那是步入暮年、身患不治之症的人才会想的事吧。我可不想浪费时间去想。还不如珍惜现在的时光。只要珍惜现有的一切，就不会留下遗憾。不留遗憾，走也走得瞑目吧。
Innocence
7/28/2008 09:23:00 PM
Sunday, July 27, 2008
立志用“心”是很好，但是，明德，我现在要跟你说：“心不是你唯一需要的东西。”
常言道：“好心做坏事”，“有心无力”，往往许多事情，除了一心一意，还需要“法”。方法不对，一切免谈。事倍功半，更不在话下。做事得“法”，就算无“心”，依然能够生存，过活。看看我国的教师们。在这12年的学习生涯中，要是有人现在过来跟我说:“教师都是用心良苦的，每一位都是为了你的学习进度着想。”
屁啦！有些教师简直是如鱼得水，在这混世中活得有滋有味。并不是所有老师喜欢教书，更免谈关心学生。无“心”却得“法”，让他们仍然能在教育界混下去。
用心很好，但方法真的很重要。时间不多，好好掌握。好兄弟会在这里鼓励你的！(oops,是七月hor）
Innocence
7/27/2008 03:56:00 PM
Saturday, July 26, 2008
Well honestly, I didn't care about my blog for the past few months. I must say sorry to it. That said, there wasn't much to talk about anyway. Any teeny weeny little bits of emotions here and there were cruelly erased, eradicated, blasted away with the never-ending waves of homework. It's like "I'm finally done!" and you get some more work tomorrow. Oh crap I didn't revive this blog to talk crap.
It's like the same scenario, the same experience repeated from two years ago. Only this time, the stress is greater. The difficulty is greater. Hell, everything's harder and more difficult this time round. A's is creating stress for everybody. And so, why am I here at this crucial moment, idling my time away at this stupid window that has two buttons labelled "Publish Post" and "Save now"? For a simple reason: It's time to think.
All of us have the responsibility to think. To think for ourselves, to think for our loved ones, to think for our future, to think for our academics, to think for those under our charge, to think of how to answer to our superiors, etc. What is lacking nowadays is that we dun have the time to think. And so many of us sacrifice the time to think, which is very discouraged. In my opinion, thinking is a very important process in moving on. Those who know me will know how i stare at a certain question for very long sometimes and still not putting down any answer. That's because I like thinking more than anything else. Not that we should waste all our time thinking but..I feel that the thinking process is worth more than anything else. Especially when you're thinking hard. Thinking is about planning, about deciding, or simply just..trying to solve a mathematics question. Like what i did 2 hours ago and got pissed at. 思而不学则殆，学而不思则惘。I think the more I ramble on, the more crap is being retrieved out of me, but basically, thinking is a personal process which is unique to everyone. So hereby starts MY thinking process.
I've been thinking about the normal things everyone thinks about in their thinking time. Like what happens when we die, my goals in life, what i want to achieve, etc. But most importantly, and most applicable in the present time, is how I want my JC life to end. Yes, it's coming to an end. And knowing that Mr Lee Ming Te is going overseas after JC doesn't make things better. But he's furthering his studies, it's a good cause, so good luck Mr Lee. Okay, I digress. It's time for us to think about what has happened in this mere 2 years of our lifetime. We are stepping out into the society very soon, after A lvls are finished and we are finally over and done with for hardcore mugging. I think, 10 years down the road, how many of us would still be free/willing to get down to the same class bench (assuming it still exists and will not be replaced, but looking at the state of it now..quite hard). I think, 10 years down the road, I would be talking to accomplished doctors, lawyers, scientists, businessmen (yes I haven't forgotten Mr Lee), etc. I think, 10 years down the road, I would be the one up there talking crap and wasting precious time of students in lectures and tutorials. (though I hope I wouldn't). Endless thinking. Not endless time. Essentially, thinking about how little time we have left, and how we are going to use it. Definitely, my priority is studies and Anita. Yes I balance the two. Lastly, I think about how I will own in the next prelims.
And I think about the people I meet too. It's that stupid brain of mine. Like a random stranger I meet on the street, it has to categorise and associate the person with something. It's weird. And almost immediately, I decide whether I would like that person or not. Haha. I doubt that brain's gonna change. It includes teachers too, but of course my brain utilises more of its functions this time. It extracts what's good and bad about the styles of teachers, and then place it at some small storage place in my brain. I'll take it out when the time comes.
How long this post has been. How useless it has been too. Oh well. It's mugging time! Or so i say.
Innocence
7/26/2008 04:13:00 PM
